[note to self]
May. 11th, 2024 05:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
virgomooni revisited my draft and hated it so much i want to tell myself to fuck off. fuck off. now that's done i want to say that w. h. auden was catastrophically wrong, because narratives run the world.
that aside, after working for 6 months in the world of fine arts or whatever i am beginning to feel dulled by the logistics and the on-goings of the world for creating content for children, driven as it is by concerns of commerce and politics. it is EXTREMELY liberating to be working on the admin/logistics side of things, seeing how things get done, but it's equally harrowing. i have no point in me about what sets people free or what ensconces them into cycles of oppression. it will all ring hallow.
what i will say is that i have been working on a short story for 4 years now. it is about caste, it is about class and it is about cyborg women robots because they hate cishets and want to be women. it is about scavenging, and cleaning sewers. it is about kolkata. and it is the worst thing in the world to be written. and i will finish it and send it off and it will make nothing happen and that will be Okay because at least i will have finished it and sent it off.
and then i will write a love letter to ninn saluun's art.
that aside, after working for 6 months in the world of fine arts or whatever i am beginning to feel dulled by the logistics and the on-goings of the world for creating content for children, driven as it is by concerns of commerce and politics. it is EXTREMELY liberating to be working on the admin/logistics side of things, seeing how things get done, but it's equally harrowing. i have no point in me about what sets people free or what ensconces them into cycles of oppression. it will all ring hallow.
what i will say is that i have been working on a short story for 4 years now. it is about caste, it is about class and it is about cyborg women robots because they hate cishets and want to be women. it is about scavenging, and cleaning sewers. it is about kolkata. and it is the worst thing in the world to be written. and i will finish it and send it off and it will make nothing happen and that will be Okay because at least i will have finished it and sent it off.
and then i will write a love letter to ninn saluun's art.
