job thoughts

2025 thoughts

under the cut is the original post but i'm updating it with this little note to say i did go to that festival and i was mistaken in who they were kicking out, but most of the other relevant details are still true, especially wrt my discomfort with the areas within which my job operates. also had a big blowout recently w the boss, etc, anyway. the aim is to resign by the end of this year. so much stupid shit that i don't even know how to handle.

( 2024 entry )

things to improve in writing [note to self]

writing texture

- plot (masha does this extremely well like she quickly hits character notes then gets into plot as well its fascinating to me)

for this i will attempt to write a little silly piece of detective fiction - nothing like a mystery to learn how to Plot


- characterisation

i am decent ish at this i believe but my two biggest enemies are 1. how to name people 2. how to make people bad. people are all bad and good but i lean a bit too much into the goodness and not enough into the murkiness. the murkiness doesn't mean NOIR it just means how people are in reality. real stuff! i really want to get real. like how the narrator of WTNV takes you unawares when he suddenly turns racist. Ryoko Kui is excellent at this.


- tone

i don't think i'm bad at tone, just that my tone gets a little... samey. it's not bad but i think my samey isn't the same as my favourite authors and their samey. their samey rules. mine is a little stale.

for this i think just practicing flash pieces will work. need to source ideas



writing forms

- longer lengths

write more than 3-5k words, PLEASE. let us aim at 15k words... lol.


- other formats than fiction and non-fiction

such as twine, experimental writing, poetry. my goal is to try and create a chapbook this year and a interactive fiction piece




will update when i think of more but these are already pretty big holes that i've known about forever except i want to do something about these now systematically