[fic] 2022 fic plans, reflections
Feb. 2nd, 2022 05:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
virgomoon> probably hopefully sign up for dcf and commit to it.
> finish 2020 dcf fic! please!
> finish kita shinsuke exchange fic (and see if you can squeeze in another gift). one gen, one somewhat shippy. (couldn't squeeze in another gift)
> finish the gekkan shoujo nozaki kun fic. try to see if you can make nyr out of this. probably not.
> gift fics!!! i have ideas in mind but can't write them here in case people are peeking. but mostly 2 gift fics. might backtrack on one bcs shyness is endemic to Me.
> one comedy fic (kinda done but also not. wasn't funny enough! more funny!) and one horror fic (the tanaka-kiyoko fic in my head. that's not. happening :( OR something else. donno what yet)
reflections!
the thing is, i wrote the most i ever have in 2021. call it linear progression, things add up, but its still good that they added up, isn't it? and i already know i will write more in 2022! i can feel myself getting marginally better! i'm not the greatest which is why i don't like telling ppl "hey i've put out something" because i truly don't write for. idk. someone to read it. i write for me. and if someone reads it i treat that like a pleasant surprise. this might have something to do with my horrible self-confidence but we won't get into that. anyway, i wrote a lot and i will write a lot. but i also want to write original fic! i already have a couple of WIPs and a few ideas in my head. i've found a relatively new place that might pay if mine is selected. but as always i'm afraid of like, plagiarism? and like. rejection. i think of rejections a lot. i reject myself from a thing before i'm even accepted potentially. and i regret that a lot later, but doing it is fun anyway because it protects me.
i need to look at rejection straight in the face and say fuck you. you have a point, probably, but fuck you. i already deal with enough self-loathing on my own before you have to ruin my life for me. i back out of things before i can even commit. i am 22 damn it, when will i be normal and saneee and attentive and focused. argh!
anyway, this is kind of why i want to write more fic. bad people are rare in ficland where all is okay, and good people plenty. encouragement or not, just getting to exist here chilling with my brainworms is so nice. and also because i have ideas i dont want to see anyone else execute hehe
> finish 2020 dcf fic! please!
>
> finish the gekkan shoujo nozaki kun fic. try to see if you can make nyr out of this. probably not.
> gift fics!!! i have ideas in mind but can't write them here in case people are peeking. but mostly 2 gift fics. might backtrack on one bcs shyness is endemic to Me.
> one comedy fic (kinda done but also not. wasn't funny enough! more funny!) and one horror fic (the tanaka-kiyoko fic in my head. that's not. happening :( OR something else. donno what yet)
reflections!
the thing is, i wrote the most i ever have in 2021. call it linear progression, things add up, but its still good that they added up, isn't it? and i already know i will write more in 2022! i can feel myself getting marginally better! i'm not the greatest which is why i don't like telling ppl "hey i've put out something" because i truly don't write for. idk. someone to read it. i write for me. and if someone reads it i treat that like a pleasant surprise. this might have something to do with my horrible self-confidence but we won't get into that. anyway, i wrote a lot and i will write a lot. but i also want to write original fic! i already have a couple of WIPs and a few ideas in my head. i've found a relatively new place that might pay if mine is selected. but as always i'm afraid of like, plagiarism? and like. rejection. i think of rejections a lot. i reject myself from a thing before i'm even accepted potentially. and i regret that a lot later, but doing it is fun anyway because it protects me.
i need to look at rejection straight in the face and say fuck you. you have a point, probably, but fuck you. i already deal with enough self-loathing on my own before you have to ruin my life for me. i back out of things before i can even commit. i am 22 damn it, when will i be normal and saneee and attentive and focused. argh!
anyway, this is kind of why i want to write more fic. bad people are rare in ficland where all is okay, and good people plenty. encouragement or not, just getting to exist here chilling with my brainworms is so nice. and also because i have ideas i dont want to see anyone else execute hehe
